Progressing.

I didn't have a nightmare last night at least.

The paranoia is becoming overwhelming. I cant get it out of my head that I'm the subject of an experiment and people are watching me and studying me. I know its not true, but my mind is having a hard time agreeing with me. I hallucinate cameras sitting around the house, but when I take a second look, they're gone. I haven't been this paranoid in quite some time, even more than last year. The hospital is looking promising right now. I'm still in the wait and see mode, though.

Went over to Kelly's yesterday, panicked and on edge. She gave me a klonopin, but it didn't help all that much. I need to start carrying my meds with me, including the Zyprexa as needed for racing thoughts. Maybe I'll get my meds together today.

I had a therapist appointment with Beth yesterday. It was just the beginning interview, but I do like her so far. I see her again next Friday at 1. I'm proud of myself that I'm actually getting into therapy. I've needed it.

I was interviewed for the PatientsLikeMe newsletter. She says it comes out around the 15th. I'm forwarding it to a million people because everyone wants to see. I wonder why they picked me to interview, I'm not all that active in the forums. I update my page every day, for the most part. If you want to visit my PatientsLikeMe profile, go here.

I'm going to Luna tonight with Kelly and this girl she is dating, Eli. I've never been to Luna, let alone gone clubbing, so I'm really excited. Its alternative dance night so I get to dress in my favorite clothes and do awesome makeup. I'll get some pictures, I promise!

Anyway, I suppose that is it.